3:59 PM |
Monday, February 12, 2007
ya i am here to blog agn after reading LL's blog..
and i should tell everyone wad i am thinking now and wad i have decided..
i have decided to go for ITE for dipoma of higher nitec in information technology or dipoma of higher nitec in business studies(sports management) if i can successfully appeal and while i am in yr 1 i am retaking my o lvl's sub as private candidate.. hias and if i do well in it hopefully i can go on to poly after 1 yr in ite.. is that good or helping..
i think thats the only best way for me cause i dun have the confident of getting good result like 18 points for R1L4 for my product and industries design in TP.. hias so i chosen this road instead... am i making a right decision? hope so.. god plss plss answer my prayer.. am i?
hias i am feeling so dissapointed and down while all my frend have score for it and get at least a course in poly but i cant.. hias i felt so lousy while i heard result of other ppl.. hias am i such a failue? arghhh i really cant believe it that i am in such a state now.. is ITE really is the end..? will i get influence when i get into ITE or will i get into poly after the 2 yr course in ITE?
i dunwan to lose all my frends now.. but i think i am slowly to lose them as they will have thier good future to go and i am still lidat wont be able to contact with each other cause they are in poly while i am in ITE stuggling.. will our frendship brk? i dunwan i hate their feeling and i dunwan to be a loner with no frends around...
its so hard to find a group of frends that i have now.. cause they are just like gold to me.. will u find gold in the middle of the road just like that? no.. u will nv ever.. so i duwnna to lose them..
hias.....
i will all my frends...
everytime after the result day after getting my result.. i have been thinking wad should i do? where should i go.. have i made the right decision.. i dunno... i am totally blank and confuse.. whenever i have nth to do all this thing will all appear in my mind and i cant stop thinking abt it.. i cant even slp at nite... hias...
will everything change after this..
i dunwan...
my life is filled with only black and white now..
