2:10 PM |
Saturday, January 27, 2007
wad a raining day... hias stayed at home the whole day.. just found out that i got nth to say speechless recently and dun even know how to spell even tots simple spelling.. arghh.. jialet.. wth wth wth...hmm i get trick by the weather in the evening that makes me so angry.. it was raining heavy at 5 plus so i decided not to go training as its was raining so i didt go BUT the rain stop at 6 plus.. arghh thn the training start at 7.. i missed another national training agn.. hias the chance of me being selected for national team is getting smaller and smaller.. that make me so dissapointed and lost.. ''if u got the heart to go in into the national team u will go for the training and stuff and not finding all kind of thing and thinking not to go.. how to improve and getting stronger by doing all this...''hias this is the thing that i have been thinking and thinking keep telling myself this but i still cant let myself be commited to it.. how?hias how to have a strong mind? that tough hmmmm..wad a day... hias been hot temper and attitude even against small small thing nowadays.. today WORST.. arghh... maybe due to the staying at home and more more more...
everything seems to appear in my mind wheneven i have nth to do. i will keep thinking abt it.. ARGHhhh.. i hate it. i hate you.. i ahte everything.. i am here to face all the thing alone.. do u know.. i cant tell anyone abt it.. u know how hard is it for me.. do u understand...!! NO.. no one would ever know how i feel now cause i guess only 1 out of 10 guys will get this or should i say not even one out of the 10 guys will get this.. thats it..hiastml will it be good day or a speshow day? shall see...hias i am feeling so so so so dwn now.. wad shall i do i am lost currently.. i think the change of 2006 to 2007 makes me worst.. nth seem to be good to me.. i am leading a fucking life now...who the fuck is irwinn..who the fuck are you..you are nth..dun just say.. show it the others!!!!!!!been toking to myself like this.. am i sick?hias or tots who stayed at home too much will become lidat.. ? anyone have been lidat before..been blog hopping frm just now cause i really got nth better to do....see many of the blog.. ya hias speechless should end here....will a loser always e a loser...will they win one day?its all up to them to decide..cause its their life..thats life..thats how we grow? rite?hmm i am17+ and i WAN TO GROW.. 18 soonn.. is that adult?stepping a wrong step in life will ruin everything...boon is creating a blog now.. hmm should link him up..yeah~lol jeeboonthegreat~ah xin going off....
